have a heart. have a heart.

"many of us are loyal to our notions of Jesus, but how many of us are loyal to Him? loyalty means i have to step out where i do not see anything ; loyalty to my notions means that i clear the ground first of m intelligence . faith is not intelligent understanding, faith is deliberate commitment...obey Him with reckless joy."- oswald chambers

i don't exactly know how to begin this blog or what i should actually say, but i know i want to say something. do you ever go through periods of your life and feel like you are supposed to be learning something about yourself- well that is what has been happening to me lately.

sometimes, i feel like i have lost myself and as time progresses its hard to regain the things i have left behind. this past week i saw glimpses of me, or who i want to be. the sad part is, all i can think about is how hard it will be to give up the things i do- the same things that keep me from being the person i want to be....such is life, i guess. at any rate, i feel that something has changed in my heart. my prayer is that i can honor God with a balanced life that gives Him glory.