Monday, February 28

and the question that plagues my mind. is grace enough.

i recently read an excerpt from the book, bono: in conversation with michka assayas. below is a part i thought was really interesting.

Assayas: I think I am beginning to understand religion because I have started acting and thinking like a father. What do you make of that?

Bono: Yes, I think that's normal. It's a mind-blowing concept that the God who created the universe might be looking for company, a real relationship with people, but the thing that keeps me on my knees is the difference between Grace and Karma.

Assayas: I haven't heard you talk about that.

Bono: I really believe we've moved out of the realm of Karma into one of Grace.

Assayas: Well, that doesn't make it clearer for me.

Bono: You see, at the center of all religions is the idea of Karma. You know, what you put out comes back to you: an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, or in physics; in physical laws every action is met by an equal or an opposite one. It's clear to me that Karma is at the very heart of the universe. I'm absolutely sure of it. And yet, along comes this idea called Grace to upend all that "as you reap, so you will sow" stuff. Grace defies reason and logic. Love interrupts, if you like, the consequences of your actions, which in my case is very good news indeed, because I've done a lot of stupid stuff.

Assayas: I'd be interested to hear that.

Bono: That's between me and God. But I'd be in big trouble if Karma was going to finally be my judge. I'd be in deep s---. It doesn't excuse my mistakes, but I'm holding out for Grace. I'm holding out that Jesus took my sins onto the Cross, because I know who I am, and I hope I don't have to depend on my own religiosity.

Assayas: The Son of God who takes away the sins of the world. I wish I could believe in that.

Bono: But I love the idea of the Sacrificial Lamb. I love the idea that God says: Look, you cretins, there are certain results to the way we are, to selfishness, and there's a mortality as part of your very sinful nature, and, let's face it, you're not living a very good life, are you? There are consequences to actions. The point of the death of Christ is that Christ took on the sins of the world, so that what we put out did not come back to us, and that our sinful nature does not reap the obvious death. That's the point. It should keep us humbled . It's not our own good works that get us through the gates of heaven.

Assayas: That's a great idea, no denying it. Such great hope is wonderful, even though it's close to lunacy, in my view. Christ has his rank among the world's great thinkers. But Son of God, isn't that farfetched?

Bono: No, it's not farfetched to me. Look, the secular response to the Christ story always goes like this: he was a great prophet, obviously a very interesting guy, had a lot to say along the lines of other great prophets, be they Elijah, Muhammad, Buddha, or Confucius. But actually Christ doesn't allow you that. He doesn't let you off that hook. Christ says: No. I'm not saying I'm a teacher, don't call me teacher. I'm not saying I'm a prophet. I'm saying: "I'm the Messiah." I'm saying: "I am God incarnate." And people say: No, no, please, just be a prophet. A prophet, we can take. You're a bit eccentric. We've had John the Baptist eating locusts and wild honey, we can handle that. But don't mention the "M" word! Because, you know, we're gonna have to crucify you. And he goes: No, no. I know you're expecting me to come back with an army, and set you free from these creeps, but actually I am the Messiah. At this point, everyone starts staring at their shoes, and says: Oh, my God, he's gonna keep saying this. So what you're left with is: either Christ was who He said He was the Messiah or a complete nutcase. I mean, we're talking nutcase on the level of Charles Manson. This man was like some of the people we've been talking about earlier. This man was strapping himself to a bomb, and had "King of the Jews" on his head, and, as they were putting him up on the Cross, was going: OK, martyrdom, here we go. Bring on the pain! I can take it. I'm not joking here. The idea that the entire course of civilization for over half of the globe could have its fate changed and turned upside-down by a nutcase, for me, that's farfetched

Bono later says it all comes down to how we regard Jesus:

Bono: If only we could be a bit more like Him, the world would be transformed. When I look at the Cross of Christ, what I see up there is all my s--- and everybody else's. So I ask myself a question a lot of people have asked: Who is this man? And was He who He said He was, or was He just a religious nut? And there it is, and that's the question. And no one can talk you into it or out of it.

Wednesday, February 23

Tuesday, February 22

the moon is not only ice cold. it is here to stay.

i realize i am posting twice in one day, which makes me look like i have no life. the truth is, i should be writing papers but "surfing the web" is so much more interesting!
since visiting new york i have been obsessed with jewelry. below are items from house of harlow that i love! (and some shoes!)















we will sink and be quiet as mice. while the cat is away and do what we want.

you can't go on facebook without reading how ah-mazing the new radiohead album is... i am going to continue this trend. it is literally changing my life and needs to be documented.
please, listen to it.



Saturday, February 19

why don't you do any dishes? why? i always clean up the kitchen. fine.

winters in chicago can really depress you. this past week has been ah-mazing weather though. my mood has drastically changed. i sort of hate how controlled i am by external factors, but such is life... i guess.
switching topics...
a couple days i ago, i was tutoring this refugee from cuba. i guess i should begin by saying that once a week, i tutor non-English speakers. this particular man had a low English proficiency. luckily, i did take spanish and could somehow remember words to communicate with him! literally, we were carrying on conversations in spanish.... i stopped a few times to laugh at how insanely funny this may have looked like! i brought this up to sort of shed some light on the nature of immigrant status. more than not, immigrants come here as economic or political refugees. it is so important to remember that.
on a similar note, i am tutoring a korean girl who just arrived here to go to university. i met her at a coffee shop near school. it was so nice to spend time with her. she is so "korean" and by that, i mean everything that i love and miss about korea, she embodies! i invited her to dinner tonight. i am making stuffed shells and cinnamon swirl cake...fingers are crossed that it will be edible!

Wednesday, February 16

but now i see.

any of you who really know me, understand that i go through phases. when i'm in a phase one would never comprehend that it will probably only as long as a month or so.
currently, i am in a gym phase. let me preface, i really like to run but chicago winters do not lend itself to this activity. i decided that in order to not get fat, i needed to join a gym. i soon became obsessed with spin and yoga. now, i work out 6 times a week... i am hoping this phase doesn't go away! i mean, how can working out be a bad thing...
spin class has me listening to techno and techno-remixed top 40 songs (to be clear, i only listen to this music in class). the past two classes a song has played that really got me thinking. i am not sure if t-pain or akon "sings" it or what the actual title of the song is. basically, "live like you are never going to wake up" is repeated. the idea behind the song is to party so hard that one night because you may not live to see the morning. oh, the implications..... while "biking" up my 8 minute hill with crazy levels of resistance, i began thinking about this mentality - about people living with essentially no hope, just living to live. thankfully, the lights were off in the room because i started tearing up. i can't imagine a life without the hope i have in jesus.

Tuesday, February 15

look at what lovin has done.

i am super excited that all things 70s, well minus the disco fiasco are back "in". i cant wait to start wearing jeans with a huge flair. let me just say, i am not throwing out my 500 pairs of skinny jeans, but lets be real, who do they actually look awesome on... super skinny girls whose thighs and calves are the same size.
on another 70s notes, i started a collection of rings. i guess you could say, i'm going for the rachel zoe look- so obsessed with her.
lastly, i can't stop listening to cat power. i feel like this makes sense with my current 70s-ish phase. her voice is seriously one of the best.


Monday, February 14

maybe i'm just crazy, crazy for you baby.

not to post twice in one day... but...

empire state of mind-trading one city for another.

i spent this past weekend in new york. some friends and i decided to spend valentines weekend together and what better place than the city. i had such a good time. we did nothing tourist-y, so it sort of felt like i lived there (if only for a couple days). the weekend was packed full of walking everywhere (who wants to pay for transportation!), food (and by food, i mean, i was eating like every 3 hours... who can resist pizza and hot dogs and restaurants in soho), vendor shopping, and laughing. needless to say, it was a much needed vacay. i didn't think about papers, presentations, and reading education theory...
oh... and i almost forgot... so, i don't exactly have a valentine (hence the girls weekend) but i feel as though i did get some sort of a present... ok, so i am in a restaurant and as i was walking back to my seat from the ladies room, a dude stops me and was like " i saw you earlier on the street. i think you are really pretty." most people would know what to say or do next, not me. i smiled and said thank you and walked to my seat. at any rate, it was really nice (especially because he was really cute- long homeless hair and all).
happy valentines day y'all.

Wednesday, February 9

tomorrow you are laughing like a child again.

i have made a decision to switch back to blogger, although tumblr looks cooler and is a little more current. i found it rather difficult to post anything but pictures or videos- expressing my thoughts is sort of what blogging is all about, right... so, i'm back!
i have been inspired lately reading various blogs. that being said, i am going to try and improve this one....
but, not right now because i have a huge presentation later today and still haven't packed for my trip to new york! coincidentally, tomorrow is the start of fashion week! i so hope to run into rachel zoe and company!