i'm obsessed.

so... i think i am literally in love with ryan gosling. literally.

i hope it's going to make you notice.

i haven't done one of these in a while... enjoy... if anyone is even reading this anymore...

currently:

-tan with lighter hair amongst pale dark-haired northerners

-listening to the new explosions in the sky, rick ross and grizzly bear (blue valentine soundtrack) on repeat

-obsessed with foreign films

-reading lots of articles and books about critical media literacy

-yoga.running.spinning. and repeat

-downloading mixtapes (pusha-t, fear of god rules!)

-cant get enough of tv shows where you vote (ie american idol)

-green tea with honey and raw almonds

there is just somethin about the name.

sometimes i go places while on the internet and i have no idea how i even got there- one thing leads to another... we have all been there!

so, i stumbled upon this video (don't make fun). it took me back to church in high school- we clearly had some soul! anyway, as silly as this video may be, i found myself having a moment with God. kirk franklin says two things that are so good : even when we take God for granted, he does not treat us as our sins deserve and even in my imperfections God is still perfect in His grace and mercy. that's good ya'll.

so if you are into gospel, watch this video and have some church!

have a heart. have a heart.

"many of us are loyal to our notions of Jesus, but how many of us are loyal to Him? loyalty means i have to step out where i do not see anything ; loyalty to my notions means that i clear the ground first of m intelligence . faith is not intelligent understanding, faith is deliberate commitment...obey Him with reckless joy."- oswald chambers

i don't exactly know how to begin this blog or what i should actually say, but i know i want to say something. do you ever go through periods of your life and feel like you are supposed to be learning something about yourself- well that is what has been happening to me lately.

sometimes, i feel like i have lost myself and as time progresses its hard to regain the things i have left behind. this past week i saw glimpses of me, or who i want to be. the sad part is, all i can think about is how hard it will be to give up the things i do- the same things that keep me from being the person i want to be....such is life, i guess. at any rate, i feel that something has changed in my heart. my prayer is that i can honor God with a balanced life that gives Him glory.

hold fast to the human inside of you and you’ll survive.

my room mates and i have started a tradition of foreign film fridays. for the past 3 weeks, i have seen some of the best movies. last night we watched the french film, the diving bell and the butterfly. wow! i immediately purchased the book from amazon following the credits. please watch it, that's all i'm going to say- its better going into the movie with no expectation of what you will be viewing (or at least that's how i like to go about things!).

how far would you go to save the future.

"a ferocious tsunami unleashed by japan's biggest recorded earthquake slammed into its eastern coast friday, killing hundreds of people as it carried away ships, cars and homes, and triggered widespread fires that burned out of control."

some things happen making you realize that things you thought were so important, are just not. may God be with the japanese people.

when i'm with you, i have fun.

it is the first day of march and i am hopeful this is the beginning of the end of winter. i woke up and i could could actually see the sun- its been a while.

i can't think of a band better to usher in spring than best coast.