please don't forget about me.

i don't know about you, but when i have lots to do, i will do anything and everything else than what i should do. i have 2 papers due next week, one of which is literally my grade in the class. i am trying desperately to muster up some motivation to do it... i wrote 2 sentences... now, i am on a break!

this morning, while eating cinnamon toast (love), i was thinking about friendship. i thought about where i was last year, who my best friends were and then i thought about college and high school... oh, how things change through the years. i am not saying that im not friends with these people, but things change- even when you say they never will. people move, people have new jobs, new friends... this is life. it is just so interesting how people can be the center of your life and all of the sudden they are not. how do people stay connected and how is that some people stay connected more than others? i have a friend from high school that i still talk to every week. i have a friend that i went to korea with that im lucky to talk to every month... why is that? as i get older, i see the value more and more of true friendship. one of my goals this year was to become a better friend. i think i have failed so far. i think i expect too much and get my feelings hurt way to often. in fact, i may be the reason i am not "close" to people anymore- that's hard to swallow. i guess, i just hate that i have no idea what is going on in some of my friends lives, because of this i get my feelings hurt. because friendship means so much to me, i have got to be a better friend.

please be patient with me. i love you all, really.