my baby is gone, you might have a chance.

as the below post indicates i went to a "party" last saturday night. i didnt want to go to start with but i felt obligated to since i have no friends here... i thought it would get me out of the house or a bookstore and give me the ability to meet people. what was i thinking.... so i get there with my 2 other friends ( friends from college/sk) and i immediately hear girls screaming in the bathroom. i hate girls that scream in the bathroom. they all come out in a pack and are talking about inappropriate things... well, things i find inappropriate... this is how the night begins, so you can only imagine how it progresses. i could go into a lot of other happenings of the night, but honestly it would bore me to recount them to you. basically, i learned two things from that night that obviously i will share with the maybe 3 of you that read this...
1. pushing 30 and acting like a 21 year old is not cool.
2. i have changed a lot since being in korea. i used to care about how i looked (not that i dont now, but i dont have to wear make up and take a shower before i leave the house or for that matter before anyone else sees me- this is huge, if you knew my southern belle mother. i was seriously socialized to think these things (looks) were most important). i used to care a lot about how people perceived me. i think thats why i had such a huge problem with alcohol. the more i drank the more people seemed to like me. insane. now, i dont much care to drink. if you want me to be honest, i dont really like alcohol.
these are two of the many ways in which i feel i have shifted over the past 2 years. my mind has totally changed- i have my one friend to thank for that. i guess the more you are around someone, the more they rub off on you. [sometimes i feel like i have the mind of a boy now]
i am reading a new book- the brief wondrous life of oscar wao. its really good. i am halfway done. i bought 2 books yesterday at my favorite used bookstore in wicker park. the people that work there suck, but i love it nonetheless. i bought the bell jar and the adventures of tom sawyer. im skeptical of sylvia plath, but i feel like its one of those books you have to read.
one of my best friends from college is coming tonight or tomorrow. i am excited to see him. he is crazy and when i say crazy i really mean crazy. keep your fingers crossed for me.