because no one wants to die alone.

i am having a hard time writing a paper, so i decided to write a blog instead.

this may not be the best decision, since i have a lot on my mind... i am just warning you...

things have been pretty good lately. i think i am finally getting over the "shock" of not living in korea. much to my surprise, this has been so hard for me to move on from. i did love my time there, but there was also a lot that went down that was not worth loving... anyway. it has just been really hard for me. school is going well. i have realized that i am really competitive and like being the best. i don't know if this is a good trait, but it has helped me make good grades. at any rate, i like school. i don't ever want to finish. (i think this is mainly due to the fact i have no idea what i am going to do after... be a teacher... but... i have to stop this thought... its too much)

i have been thinking a lot lately about beliefs/values. i sort of have put myself in a situation where i do not completely see my values carried out. i do not mean to say core values, but values none the less. i constantly am asking myself if this thing i have put myself in is where i need to be. did god put me here for a purpose. does god even do stuff like that. i try really hard to see the big picture. i try to not only think about myself, but i feel like in this situation i need to think about myself. [i apologize for the extreme vagueness. i know it must be frustrating.]

on a very unrelated note, i have been obsessed with all things true blood. (duh (if you read my previous post)) it is set in louisiana. i have been listening to all the ryan adams and alternative country i own. i have also (drum roll) been wanting a pair of cowboy boots. i am ridiculous.

i love you blog friends.