i had such a great break that i honestly dreaded coming back. in fact, it took my room mate and i almost 2 days to make a 12 hour trip back from atlanta! having been here almost 2 days, i am reminded of the good things about it. i like my apartment. i like public transit. i like hearing street noises. i like all things depaul. i just had a really hard quarter, actually, i have been having a hard time ever since i left korea. it was hard in korea, but i did enjoy my life. i think i just moved to chicago too soon and had such lofty expectations about it. i thought people would be different and i thought i would make friends quickly. i have learned that the community i experienced in under grad was unique. there is no community at the depaul. this is sounding really sad. im over being sad about it. it is what it is and there is a reason i am here.
on a similar note, i made a resolution for 2010. for those of you who really know me this will be shocking to read (that is if anyone is reading this anyway)... i have discovered (over the last couple months) that i am pessimistic of all things "love" (notice how i have to put "" around it). i want to believe it happens. i have realized that i have been scarred by a lot things, thus not believing love (between 2 peeps) is real. this idea has caused a plethora of problems, patterns and pessimism. so, this year, i am going to be optimistic. i am not going to judge things so severely or over analyze. i want to be more open. (note that not all these behaviors are solely between me and the opposite sex but also how i view all relationships) this is going to be really hard for me, but its time to deal with some issues that have obviously caused me a whole host of problems. pray for me friends.
here is a list of other resolutions:
- sing at church
- run a marathon
- be more consistent with God
- try harder to make new friends
- take a road trip out (north)west
- be a better friend
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