now your drowning in your own saliva.

i woke up this morning feeling expectant- maybe its because im in a new place or maybe its because i have felt korea has come to me or maybe its because i had dreams that seemed so real to me (i still remember them now... if you still remember your dreams after hours of being awake it makes what happened in them seem so real).
yesterday, my roommate and i connected with someone we lived with in korea. i am so glad we did this. a lot transpired between us and this person- my heart always felt heavy when i thought of her. so, we connected and decided to pay her a visit. memories of korea flooded me- i felt like i was in my old apartment last night. we even talked with a former student. i wanted to cry after we hung up because i missed him so much- i missed my old life so much. i missed hearing about how insane the school is that i worked out, how things are never organized, the drama of what teachers came back and ones who didnt... and then of course, the secret couple drama.
anyway. today, i feel good- i feel normal.