surely as the sun will rise, you'll come to us

i was walking out of the subway today and i had a moment...maybe it was the song i was listening to, or the weather... probably God... i began looking around at people. i pass by people everyday. people that are lost. my heart broke today. there are so many people that are living lives with no hope- in anything. i began to think how one could live without any sort of hope. this is one instance in many where i have thought of people living without hope. i come in contact, close contact with people that are living just to live. i wonder how much joy these people have. i then get angry with myself when i seem to have lost joy. i have a hope. i live for something- something that matters.

i got an oswald chambers, my utmost for his highest devotional a long time ago. i never used it. lately, it has been harder to sit down and read the bible, so i have opted for these daily "nuggets" of truth to help me. (i have been feeling a pressing need for "truth" to be shot up in my bones (excuse the burst of pentecostalism)) what i read today stirred in me a desire- a desire to really learn how to love God...and more importantly trust him.

"the challenge of the missionary (all christians) does not come on the line that people are difficult to get saved, that backsliders are difficult to reclaim, that there is a wage of callous indifference; but along the line of his own personal relationship to Jesus Christ. "believe ye that i am able to do this?" our lord puts that question steadily, it faces us in every individual case we meet. the one great challenge is- do i know my risen Lord? do i know the power of his indwelling Spirit? am i wise enough in God's sight, and foolish enough according to the world, to bank on what Jesus Christ has said, or am i abandoning the great supernatural position, which is the only call for a missionary, boundless confidence in Christ Jesus? if i take up any other method i depart altogether from the methods laid down by our Lord- "all power is given unto me...therefore go ye."